Oh, I’m up way to gosh-darn late.
There’s this heavy feeling inside of me, and I’m not sure if it’s the unstable teenage emotions from the recent break-up, or the large laptop resting on my tummy.
Probably the laptop.
I decided to reread Perks of Being a Wallflower. Two reasons: I like to read books more than once (partially why I like the book, the main character and I have a lot of similarities), and I’ll have to return the book to my now ex in three… well now two… days.
As I’m heading through it this time, I’m making a playlist of Charlie’s favorite songs.
The combination of good music, emotional break-up, and relatable book, has my teenage emotions running haywire. But I decided to write some shiz down and get it out.
"Blackbird" by The Beatles makes me think of morning. Only a few more hours of reading till I’ll be hearing those sounds myself.
Charlie-esque music is very soothing. But it stirs your insides and makes you feel, something I rather robotically block out.
I have to remember: This is what I knew would happen. This is what I had wanted. (BTW, I’m talking about the end of the relationship now.)
I just didn’t really want it just yet, I didn’t want it now.
And reading. I can try to escape to the other worlds that have been painted across these pages.